Welcome back once again to ‘My Guardian Angel’ I had a lot of time to play yesterday so we have another chapter, only this one will tod from the POV from 3 characters! Thanks for all the views and recommendations, it really motivates me to continue… Let’s have a quick recap…
I held on to the phone tightly while my hand shook. Could I bring myself to call Oliver? I had to face him some time, and that time is now, so I nervously punched in his familiar number.
He picked up on the 1st ring… “Hello? Rachel? Is that you?” I couldn’t say anything, I’d lost the ability to talk…
I just stood there, looking at the phone in my still shaking hand. “Rach, I know that’s you, so please listen to me, I’m really, really sorry, I can’t forgive myself for what I’ve done to you...” Great, he was blaming himself… I didn’t want this! It’s my fault… so I hung up on him, why did I ruin the lives of everyone who I care about?
My family went to the gym that day… I didn’t want to leave the house out of fear he would be there…we used to go swimming there every Saturday… I missed him, I missed him really bad, but I couldn’t face up to what I’d done. But then I realised I got in a fight with him over Taylor, yet Taylor hadn’t checked that I was OK…. But I didn’t give him my contact details… maybe he didn’t need them, were linked and there is no denying it.
I needed to get out of the house and think, so I went to the beach near our house, I ignored that fact it was on this beach that I dreamed that Taylor and I kissed and focused on the peace, quiet and beauty of it. It inspired me to really focus on something in my life, I decided if I had talent with the guitar, why not go for it professionally?
I wasn’t the best, but I had taught myself to play and didn’t get much time to practise. I made a promise to myself that day on the beach. I promised myself that I would master the guitar and make a name for myself, like my father had failed to do. I needed to show him, if he was still alive, that I wasn’t useless and that he shouldn’t have abandoned me as a child…
Taylor’s POV!
I saw him at the gym, I knew it was him, I remembered from the memories she had once shared with me. I wanted to keep my distance, make the pain she would be feeling as minimum as possible, but I needed to know she was Ok, I had fallen for Rachel and I promised myself I wouldn’t. “Kris Miller right?” I asked her brother.
“Oh it’s you. What do you want Matthews? You sure upset my sister last night….” I knew it, I’d hurt her, I never wanted to hurt her. “You didn’t even call.” He snapped at me, I guess I deserved it, I wasn’t acting like a ‘Guardian Angel’ I wasn’t even acting like a friend.
“How do you know all of this anyway Kris?” Even though deep down I knew the answer. He looked at me with a look of annoyance yet pleasure like he was happy I felt guilty about this. “Oliver, her best friend told me. He even e-mails her every few hours to check on her… he feels bad…. What about you?”
“It’s better if I don’t see her anymore Kris…But please tell her, she means the world to me, and that I should never have come back here, and that I’m sorry.”
” Oh I know she shouldn’t see you, but she doesn’t. Rachel may not be my sister by blood, but I love her just like she is Taylor and she cares about you, so why don’t you at least tell her this face to face?”
“Because I just can’t…. please just tell her what I said Kris. Please?”
“Yeah, sure whatever.”
Maybe coming back to her, wasn’t the right thing to do. I promised her when we were younger I would, somehow I knew she needed me, and she needs help here. I can see that, buy maybe not from me. She feels so alone and unloved, but lots of people around here care for her, I just wish she could see it. I wished I could see the people who loved me…. Demi was properly worried about me… not to mention the kids, but there’s no going back now, as long as I’m here, she doesn’t need to worry about her curse… I would do anything for my sister…. And Rachel.
Could I have upset her that much? I know I should call her, or even enter her dreams again… but that just felt wrong. I guess the best thing is to leave her alone and let her fix the damage I caused… so I was all alone. I couldn’t go back, I couldn’t do that to Demi…
Sometimes I saw her around here…. I heard her voice talking to me…. “Taylor, come back to me.” I’m sorry sis, but I can’t Rachel needs me for a bit longer, and besides she can live a better life now. She tells me about her day often, I hear she’s pregnant again, wish I was there for her, but at least I know this time the guy isn’t all over her…
Of course when I was alone like this my mind began to wonder…. I began to think back to my childhood, and when she left me for unknown reasons…
I always felt safe with her as a child, with mother being part of a baby challenge, a lot of the time the younger kids didn’t see her much, that’s why me and Demi made such a strong bond…
For a long time I thought of her as my mother and she was the most important person in my life…
I loved her so much and thought of her as my mother…
Then things started to change and she seemed to distance herself from me… I felt like she was fading away…
Then one day she said those words…
“Remember Taylor, I will always love you. I’m sorry for what I'm about to do, always remember me…”
I remember crying, reaching out to her, but she didn’t come back.
That night Demi, my sister, the most important person in my life walked out of my life…. And I don’t know why…
My life took a turn for the worse after, I didn’t do anything, I kept falling asleep and running out of energy, it’s like a part of me died when she left… every time I fell asleep I would have nightmares about her and then wake up.
I remember calling out to her in the night after the nightmares… she never came back.
I felt so alone…. Life was horrible… until she came along….
She just walked in to my life… I didn’t know her, but I felt safe with her, like I could trust her. Like I felt around Demi…
I snuggled in to her soft neck, trying to forget about you…. but I couldn’t! I loved you so much, I still do!
“There there Taylor, I’m here, I will always look out for you, just like you will to me someday.”
I didn’t understand what she was talking about…. But I didn’t care I loved this girl…. That was until she also stopped coming after the incident.
Growing up with my father was difficult, I loved him, but he wasn’t you. He tried his best to comfort me after mum died, but his idea of comforting was tough love, he tried to train me to be like him, tough and to forget the past, but I didn’t want to!
Sometimes at night I felt eyes on me, I knew someone was watching me, but I didn’t know it was her…
When I woke up each morning she was gone…. But one morning she stayed…
“Who are you?” I asked timidly…
“Today’s the day!” She responded
When I turned the light on, she was gone.
I was at the park that day, people didn’t like to talk to me, they knew my father and thought I was like him, plus they knew how all of my family were gone… they didn’t want to talk to me about it, they knew I was in pain inside.
Then one day when I got there, there was a little girl playing, I thought I recognised her… she felt familiar, but I don’t know where from… then she slid down there slide and said “Oh! Look voice, I did, it I did it!” “Good job!” I responded,
It’s like she couldn’t see me, she was so beautiful and full of life, it was weird but I felt like I could feel her feelings… she felt pained, alone and scared. So did I. We were so similar, I just had to find a way to talk to her… so I walked up to the girl and she turned around…
I looked straight into her eyes… I knew we had a connection, but I could also feel the pain in her eyes… “I’m Rachel.” she said holding her hand out “Taylor.” I responded. “I know you.” She said. Something raced through my head…. I’d seen her before… I said something to her…. Then the words came out of my mouth… “Yeah, you know me. I’m your Guardian Angel!” Her face brightened right after that, but I couldn’t help but wonder why I said that? Had I met her previously? Then she faded away…
It’s been 3 days since I last spoke to Oliver… it’s been killing me. But I can’t do it! I can’t cause him more pain, as I close my eyes I get prepared to read his latest e-mail…
I knew there would be one, there had been one every morning from him but this one was different, he seemed defeated. Rach, I know you don’t want to see me, with good reason. But…. I know it was you who called me the other day… I don’t know how I just knew…. I care about you, please, just please call me, let me know your safe and maybe we can make up, or if you don’t want to make up, let me know and I’ll leave you alone. Oliver. He signed it Oliver, he never signs his name like that to me, I was his friend, and he called himself Olly around me, had I driven him away from me?
I closed my laptop, it felt like I symbolized the end of our relationship, though I wish it didn’t.
Then my phone rang and I didn’t recognise the caller ID… but I still picked it up, I needed someone to talk to…
“Rachel? Is that you?”
“Avian!” It felt so good to hear his voice. “It’s good to hear from you! What do you need? Your need my opinion on the wedding cake?”
“You’re funny Rachel. Anyway, no my parents are out and I was wondering if you wanted to come over?” “Sure.” I responded immediately.
As soon as I got there we hugged, though there were no romantic intentions from either of us. Avian was a friend, a good friend, not anything like Oliver had been but I felt good around him, like I could tell him anything.
“You seem distant, something on your mind?” He asked with a concerned face. “Are you a mind reader or something?” He chuckled again and I began to tell him about the Oliver thing, I didn’t really mention Taylor and neither did Avian, which I was extremely thankful for.
“I know I haven’t known you long, but it seems to me like you sand Oliver are really close. Both of you seem scared of losing the other and that’s why nothing has happened yet. You seem very similar and I bet you miss him badly don’t you?”
“Yeah, we grew up together and we’ve both been through a lot.”
“Rachel, you know what to do don’t you?” he asked.
“Yeah, I need to go to him, sort this out, face to face. But it’s so late now, I’ll do it in the morning…. Everyone is out and I’m scared to be alone…. Will you come home with me for a while?”
“Sure, Rach, anything to get away from my mother.” I laughed again, Avian was a really easy guy to get along with.
This part will be done in Oliver’s POV!
I had a nice life here in town. I had a nice house, a step-father who cares about me and an adopted sister who loves me also. But all of that didn’t matter because she hated me…
I hadn’t left my room in days… I missed her. School was almost unbearable, I wanted to talk to her, but I knew she didn’t need that and I don’t think my heart could hear those words again to. She hates me, Rachel hates me. I knew that was a possibility, but I couldn’t let Taylor hurt her like I knew he would, maybe I should try calling her again…. I knew that was her who phoned me yesterday morning.
“Oliver?” Great, now Chris Ford, the kindest man in the world who adopted me, was coming up the stairs, I knew me being like this was horrid for him, but I couldn’t help it.
“Listen mate, I know your upset about Rachel… but you two kids will make up, you’re to close to stay apart. Please do something today for me… and Amanda we’re worried about you staying up here all day. Promise me?”
“Sure Chris, I just need to check my messages first.” “Call me dad remember?” I loved dad, it was hard to believe that he adopted me and my adopted sister and raised us all by himself, and he really is the best man in the world to me.
No response…. Maybe I should call her… or at least call Kris and make sure she is OK…. Dad told me to go out and do something, maybe I should go and talk to her? Or will that make things worse for her?
Instead I decided to send one last e-mail, if she doesn’t respond to this one, then I need to let her get on with her life… Rach, I know you don’t want to see me, with good reason. But…. I know it was you who called me the other day… I don’t know how I just knew…. I care about you, please, just please call me, let me know your safe and maybe we can make up, or if you don’t want to make up, let me know and I’ll leave you alone. Oliver. I signed it with my full name, I didn’t want to use her nickname for me, it hurt to much, reminded me of what used to be.
I was going to go back to bed after, I know I promised I would do something, but I was just empty. I didn’t feel like doing anything, when Amanda’s sweet voice caught my attention back to her… “Go to her bro.”
“Mandy…”
“No Oliver, listen to me. I know how much you love and care for her...” “How did you know?” “She laughed that laugh I love so much, “I’m your sister what don’t I know about you? So tell me, why won’t you go and see her?”
"What if she doesn’t want me? I can’t take that pain again, I’ve already hurt her enough as it is…”
“I’ve known Rachel for a long time, she doesn’t hate you, I bet she misses you to. There is only one way to find out either way right? So go on, tell her how you feel!”
“Your right Mandy, thank you!”
“What are sisters for?”
She was right, it was time for me to confess all, maybe not all, there are some things I can’t tell her, but I can tell her how sorry I am and that I love her more than anything else in the world… “Dad, I’m going out!” He sounded so much happier than he had for a few days and so did I!
I had been to her house many times before…But I had never felt like this here…. I felt scared and nervous, how would she react to me? I got to the top of the driveway and froze as I looked in the window…..
“Oh Avian, thank you for being here for me, Kris and Jasmine will be back soon, so you can go home now… thanks for everything, I can’t wait to make it up with Oliver…. If he will accept my apology…”
“He has to, no one could stay made at you, your to sweet.”
And so I leave you here…. Will Rachel and Oliver make up and will Taylor finally reveal why he is back and reveal all about his past? Please go to http://forum.thesims3.com/jforum/posts/list/193631.page to leave me comments, and recommend if you enjoyed it! Until next time!
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