My Guardian Angel – Part 6

 

 

Welcome back everyone to the darkest chapter of this story so far! Like I said it’s a bit more depressing and darker than the previous chapters, so  I’m sorry if you dislike it, the other chapters won’t be this bad, I promise =D Thank you to everyone who commented and recommended last chapter, reading the comments really pushes me to keep going! Anyway here is a quick recap on what happened last chapter,
“Oliver has to forgive you, you’re to sweet to stay mad at!”

“Well, I need to get going, mother goes crazy when I’m out to long, though if I tell her I was with my ‘fiancé’ I’m sure she wouldn’t mind as much.” He smirked. How could his mother expect us to get married when we just met, I will never know. “Goodnight Avian.” “Goodnight Rachel.” He bent and kissed my hand, just like a gentleman would, I’m sure I was blushing…

As I watched him go, I felt eyes on my back and as soon as the door shut, she pounced on me...
“I see you two are getting on well!”

“Tamsin? What were you doing standing there?”
“I was reading a book in the dining room when I heard you 2 talking… so how are you 2 doing?”

“Honestly, Tam, I feel really close to him, but that’s it. There is nothing going on between us, OK?”
“That’s nice to hear! I told you, that you needed to go out and make more friends, now go to bed its late.”

“Yes, Amelia it’s me. Yes all appears to be going well, don’t worry by the end of the month, they will be an official couple, trust me.”

I walked in to my room, only to find Kris there waiting for me…
“Hey are you OK Rach? I’ve noticed you’ve been distant lately…” I couldn’t believe he noticed I’d been like this, I knew he had been in contact with Oliver. But it was still sweet.

“Yeah, of course I’m fine Kris! I just got into a little fight, but in the morning, I’m sure it will all be fine!”
“OK, great, you know I’m always here if you need me, right?”

“So… I’ve been hearing rumours…”
“Oh? About what?”
“You… and that Taylor guy.”
“Nothing is going on between us, Kris.”

“That’s good to hear, cause I met him at the gym today… “
“Yeah?” What was he doing there? And why was he talking to Kris? “And?”
“He told me to tell you that’s he’s sorry he met you and that you won’t see him again. Good thing eh? He’s weird…”

Why did he tell Kris all of this? Why didn’t he tell me this to my face? He admitted he cared about me, he told me he would tell me what was going on! But more importantly, why was Kris talking about him like this?
“How dare you talk about him like that Kris?” I screamed at him, clenching my fists. “Rachel, what’s wrong? I thought you 2 weren’t close, he doesn’t want you Rachel, just let him go!” Then my conscience and common sense caught up with me, I had already lost Oliver when my I lost my temper, and I wasn’t going to lose Kris too.

He looked so hurt when I looked in to his eyes. “Kris, I’m sorry, really I am, I just need some sleep, then I will be better.”
“Sure thing, I heard you screaming again a few nights ago, if anything happens you can wake me up, OK?”
“That won’t happen Kris, I promise.”

I was so tired and for the first night in over a week, I had a full night’s sleep, maybe things were on the up! Maybe Oliver would forgive me…

I felt sick and my stomach hurt like mad, but I needed to do this, I needed my best friend, I needed Oliver. “Here goes!”

His dad, Chris greeted me at the door with a smile on his face.
“Rachel! I haven’t seen you in a while!” I thought of him like a father to me sometimes, this was one of those times. “Yeah, I’ve been really busy lately, anyway is Olly home?”

He surprised me by pulling me into hug and said “You look upset, you 2 still in that fight? Don’t worry about it, I haven’t seen Olly today, why don’t you ask Amanda, she’s up stairs!” I thanked him and went to find Amanda, I was also very close to her.

“I can’t believe you two are finally going to make up!” She was excitable and sometimes she’s head to talk to, but I needed her, “Listen Mandy, I need to know where Olly is, I need to apologise to him.”

“Come on Rachel, you honestly don’t know? Where did you guys always go when you were angry or upset?” I hated it when she didn’t give you a straight answer, but this time the answer was obvious, I knew exactly where Oliver was.

I ran straight to the school playground, I was both scared and guilty as I walked up the stairs, this was where I shouted at him…. Could he forgive me here?

I could hear him talking to himself, up in the climbing frame…. I was sure I heard my name…. it was then I decided I needed to get this over with…

“You know this would have been a lot easier, if I wasn’t wearing heels…”
“Rach?”

“Yeah, it’s me, man we haven’t done this in a while eh? I’m surprised we still fit!”
“What are you doing here? I thought you hated me…”

“I could never hate you! I’m so sorry for how I acted when I yelled at you… I was under a lot of stress and?”
“And?” I wanted to tell him everything… but I couldn’t not till I knew everything…

“And, I’m sorry…. I can’t lose you Oliver…. You mean the world to me…. I know you blamed yourself… and I never wanted that, please forgive me.”

Oliver’s POV
I didn’t know what to say…. She had to be making this up… she had to blame me… it was my fault… I lied to her… caused her pain and I can’t forgive myself..

“You have nothing to be forgiven for.”

“But Olly.”

“DON’T CALL ME THAT!” I will never forget the look on her face, all the pain and sadness I tried to keep away, and I was causing it…. But I knew this was the best thing…

“Goodbye. Rachel.”

“Oliver! Please! Stop! Just tell me what’s wrong, you mean the world to me, and I don’t want to lose you!”

I grabbed his arm without realising, I made him turn around and face me, made him look into my eyes… he was crying...

For a moment I saw the boy who was my best friend, happy and friendly, then I saw his pain flash through his eyes... the pain I had caused…

He pulled away and made a hostile face, he seemed to age before me and in a totally unfamiliar voice told me ‘I don’t want to see you ever again, I don’t want to feel this pain anymore. Goodbye.”

Then Oliver ran off towards the sunset, I felt broken and alone.

Oliver’s POV
That was the hardest thing I will ever have to do. But I know she deserves better than me, and she will be happier without me, holding her hand felt right, I wanted to tell her that I love her and want to spend my life with her, but I knew she doesn’t feel the same. So that was the day I decided to walk out of her life…

I stood there for what seemed like hours, it was dark but I didn’t care… It felt like my heart had been ripped away and a huge heavy rock had been left in its place. That’s when I heard his voice “Are you OK?” I turned to face him, even though I felt like I didn’t want to.

“Do you need someone to talk to Rachel? I came looking for you so we could work on our project… but it seems you need me for something else…”
“Darren, please, just leave me alone.”

 

“I’m not leaving you until I know you’re OK…. My parents our out for the week, why don’t you come over for a bit…”
I know I should have said no, but I felt so alone and upset, so I said yes.

He held on to my hands tightly and looked in to my eyes… “Your eyes and stunning you know that? Just like the rest of you...” Normally I would have walked away from him… but I felt like no one cared, so I just stood there while he complimented me…

Suddenly he leaned in and kissed me! I had nothing left in me to complain or shout…. This was my first kiss! My first ever kiss would be with Darren Harris! I mean yeah  I dreamed of kissing Taylor, but that was a dream, this was real, my first kiss, stolen by someone I hardly knew…

“I’m sorry…. I shouldn’t have done that… I couldn’t help it, you’re so beautiful in the moonlight.” I couldn’t respond… I was still in shock…  “Come on, I will show you to my place.”

He took me into his bar and began to make some drinks, I didn’t care what it was, my throat was so dry and I  could hardly speak… he looked deep in to my eyes the whole time…

We sat there and talked for a little while “You not going to have a drink?” I thought it seemed weird but he told me his football coach wouldn’t like him doing it…. But the drink wasn’t alcoholic… but something did taste funny about it…

The next few hours of my life are a complete blur to me…. I remember him gently rubbing my back, making me feel safe, I began to trust him… “Let me take the pain away Rachel.”

I don’t know what he had put in my drink that night, but I wasn’t myself….

I found myself laughing, acting like a love-sick child around him, I had never been so vulnerable in my life…

He touched me, made me feel special, I forgot all about what had happened with Oliver that day, it was just me and him…

We made out for what must have been hours… how did I let that happen? I didn’t even love him, and he was using me while I was sad and vulnerable..

He gently pulled his lips away from mine and said “I think we can take this to the next level.” I was so drunk and out of my head, I didn’t really know what he was saying…

Somehow he managed to push me on to the bed and take most of my clothes off…. I was there… but I wasn’t… it was like I was floating… out of my body… I knew what was going on and what was about to happen, but I couldn’t stop it!

“You ready for this?” It was going to happen…. Right here... With someone I didn’t even know that well. This was the moment that someone treasures forever with someone who they care about… but that was going to be ruined for me when his voice rang through my head “RACHEL!” Taylor? How could I hear him?

“You have to pull yourself together….NOW!” I didn’t know how, but he knew I was in trouble and going to make the biggest mistake of my life! I had to stop this, and I felt I could now that I didn’t feel all alone…

“Get off me Darren.”
“Come on babes, you know you want to.” He repulsed me, so much! I had never wanted to punch someone so much in my entire life! “Let me go!” I screamed as I tried to struggle away from his grip on me..

“Oh well, you stupid idiot, we got what we wanted from you.” We? Who was he talking about? What had he done to me? That’s when her icy voice registered in my foggy brain… “Man are YOU easy to seduce.”

What was Diana Johnson, the person I hated the most in this world, hear in Darren’s home, and then it hit me. “No, no way!” “Oh way, smile for the camera Morgan.”

How had I not seen the camera? What did they want with me anyway? “What do you want Diana!” I said as I got off the bed and as far away from Darren as I could get. “I’m tired of everyone noticing you instead of me, it’s not fair! You’re a loser, you always have been and you always will be, no one will ever love you, how could you, you’re a killer! Now everyone including the Jones family will see you for what you are, a weak pathetic little girl!”

“You did so well babe, pretending to like her, must have been hard for you…”
“Anything for you Di, I’m actually pretty glad she came around before the ‘main event’ I would have hated for her to be my first.”
How could I have fallen for there trick? Why did I trust him in the first place? But the goading wasn’t finished…

“I wonder how her family will react once they see the video? I have to thank Jasmine for telling me about you and that Avian kid, I wonder how his mother will react? Your sister is so stupid, letting me get close, once you’re out of the picture, she is next…” That’s it, no one talks about me or my sister like that, and I’ve put up with enough of her already….

“Don’t you talk about me or my family like that! You are the worst person on this whole planet and you need to wake up and see no one likes you! Darren will drop you in a second as soon as something prettier comes along, like Jasmine, everyone knows you’re jealous of her, give me that film and I will be on my way!”

Then she attacked me, I was still dizzy and disoriented, but I was also extremely annoyed at my life and myself and used all of that sadness and anger to get her off me.

I’ve never been a violent person, but that felt SO GOOD! I’m sure every girl in the entire school had wanted to do that to her at some point, but I didn’t care, I just needed to GET OUT OF HERE!

I couldn’t find my clothes, so I headed towards the door when she grabbed my arm, digging in with her nails, making me bleed and slapped me on the face “You will NEVER be me!” She screeched at me. “Good.” I replied, my head had really started to hurt now and I could hardly think straight…

I ran I didn’t know where I was going or where I was, I just ran. I had to get away, my head was pounding and I felt I was going to collapse, it’s a good thing my sleeping ware was appropriate, I got a few looks some of disgust, others of concern, but I didn’t care! I needed to get home!

Suddenly I had to hold my head up, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t move…. I just replayed what had happened in my head, I thought of Diana and Darren, I thought about my brother and sister, I thought about Avian and wondered if he could see me now, would he turn away? Then I saw Chris, and Amanda…. And Oliver… how could I have let him go? Finally I saw Taylor, he seemed like the most important person in my life….I saw him run towards me….

And then it all went black…

How did I let this happen? How could I let her get hurt like this? I could feel all her emotions running through her as she slept in my arms… it’s a good job I worked out, but she seemed to fit into my arms so well, I carried her home and as we were linked, I could feel all of her emotions, she was tired, hurt, confused, betrayed and alone all at once, I couldn’t help but blame myself…

I watched her sleeping, I didn’t know when she would wake up, or if she needed any medical help… what if she was hurt badly? No, I could still feel her, she was going through the events that had happened recently in her life…. Had I ruined her life that badly being here? I closed my eyes and focused….. ‘Rachel, it’s me, it’s Taylor, I’m here for you, please wake up…” Then she muttered something in her sleep, something I will never forget… “Taylor…… I love you….”