Welcome back to My Guardian Angel and I must admit, one of the most dramatic chapters to date! Thanks to everyone who left comments last time, it really means a lot to me when I know how much this story is liked, shall we continue?
“I’m sorry I kept it from you Rachel, I just wanted you to be happy again after all you’ve been through.”
I looked right into his deep blue eyes, all I could see was kindness and honesty.
“Taylor, this is the nicest thing anyone has ever done! I can’t believe that I’m going to a guitar competition!”
“Rachel? You look really pretty in the glow of the fire…”
I could feel my face getting hotter, was he really telling me this?
“Catch me!”
OK, why I jumped in to his arms, I just don’t know why… it just felt right. Of course, he caught me and I snuggled in to him…
“What’s wrong with you Rach?”
“I’m just so happy!”
It was getting late and I had to go, I had a group of friends and family that needed to pack their things for tomorrow, TOMMOROW!
Taylor’s POV
I hope she enjoys tomorrow, I know I can’t be here forever, so I am going to make sure her life is perfect before I go. I know she will do well, she is to kind, talented and beautiful to fail, and I know she will love the other surprise I have planned…
When I finally got back to the house I was buzzing and had to tell someone, I knew Jasmine would want to be the 1st to know, so I had to creep in to the room she shared with Avian (Everyone could tell liked each other) I gently tapped her, hoping she would get up, and keep quiet.
My sister is one of those people who look good even after just waking up, of course I also had to put my hand over her mouth to stop her waking everyone up, she looked at me and I mouthed ‘Follow Me’
“What’s the big emergency Rach? I need my 9 hours of beauty sleep?”
“What? You don’t need beauty sleep! Anyway, listen, hope you’ve got nothing planned for tomorrow….because we are all going to the next town over because I have been entered in a music competition!”
“I am so happy for you sis! You deserve it and I know you’re going to win! I just can’t believe it!”
“Thanks Jaz, you have no idea how much this means to me!”
“Anything for you Rach, like I said you deserve it after all you’ve been through…”
“Am I missing something?” We both quickly pulled away and looked to see who was up.
“Oh Avian, why are you up this early?” She was pulling that face she used when she liked someone, I just wished she would tell him, they both deserve each other…
“I dunno, I guess I could just sense you were up Jazzy…”
As he walked over Jasmine took his hands gently and looked right at him, “Really? That is so sweet of you Avian…”
“Your sweet, Jasmine. No your better than that, your beautiful!”
I just stood there smiling like an idiot, but they were so sweet together!
My life had changed so much in the past few months, I was very close to my siblings, I had made a lot of friends and I might have a boyfriend!
I don’t know who kissed who, but I think it’s official Avian and Jasmine are an item, how sweet are they?
You can tell when you look at her, Avian means the world to her. She has had a few boyfriends, but not one like this, they love each other for who they are, not their last name… Both my siblings are happy with someone…. Why did I have to have 2 special someone’s?
I left them getting cosy on the sofa, I had to tell Kris and Megan, plus watching them so in love with each other made me feel funny, maybe even a little guilty.
As you can imagine both Kris and Megan were thrilled and supportive for me! It finally felt for the 1st time in almost 17 years that I had a family…
I looked at myself in the mirror that much, I didn’t used to do it, but I was shocked at the person who looked back at me, she seemed so grown up, like she had been through so much, but she was OK, and I was! I was extremely nervous for the following day, so I went to sleep.
The next morning we got dressed up in our most formal clothes and got ready to get into the taxi… but there was somewhere else I had to go first…
“I’ll catch up, I need to see someone first.” Kris nodded like he understood who I meant and the taxi drew off.
I knocked on his door, hardly able to breathe. We were still close but things had become complicated, my feelings for him had become complicated, but I knew it would be him who answered.
“Oliver.” I gasped, it seemed like so long since I had seen him, and I had never realised how handsome he had become, we had grown up together, but I had only seen the kind young man he was becoming, and I was sure I wanted him in my life somewhere…
Of course when I told him he hugged me, I expected him to, and he was just that kind of guy, a gentleman with a big heart.
What I hadn’t realised was how we had suddenly gotten closer and his arms were placed softly on my shoulders….
“Oh, I’m so sorry.” He blushed and his face went an adorable pink colour.
“It’s fine, so when were you planning on putting your tux on?”
“You mean”?”
“Of course your coming, are you stupid or what?” We laughed just like we used to, but things had defiantly changed.
As he released his arms from my shoulders are hands brushed and I found myself just holding him close and looking in to his eyes, his stunning brown eyes, I hated myself right now, how could I love two guys?
It was silent as we approached the taxi…. It might have been because I should have been nervous, this performance could affect the rest of my life! But the real reason was properly the guilt, what was I going to do about Taylor and Oliver?
Well this is it, one of the most important days of my life, as I stood outside, ready to enter I did what I had done a lot lately, think of my mother and my aunt… Wish you guys were here, and I know you are watching over me, wish me luck! “Let’s get this over with!”
It felt so good knowing my friends were already there waiting for me, the minute I walked through the doors Jasmine approached me looking like she would burst.
“This is it sis, I know you’re going to win!” I was going to say thanks when she pulled me in closer and whispered “Someone special is looking for you…” I knew who she was talking about before I heard his voice… “Rachel, you look beautiful.”
Of course I expected him to be there, I knew he would be here for me…. But I had half hoped he wouldn’t especially as Oliver was here…
“Thanks Taylor.”
He pulled me into an embrace and smiled at me, and then he let out a slight chuckle.
“What?” I laughed.
“You look amazing and I know you’re going to win this.”
Being in his arms was so nice and relaxing, I felt so safe and calm, maybe I could win this? I felt really happy with Taylor, a lot more than I did with Oliver… but then again I’ve never told Oliver how I feel for him.
As if he knew how confused and guilty I had started to feel he let me go, how did he always know exactly what to do?
He pulled me in, at first I thought he would kiss me, but he leaned over to whisper something in my ear…. I’ve arranged another surprise for you….. You’ll get it once you perform out there. Great how could I focus after hearing that?
That was when Oliver came in, I could tell as Taylor seemed to straighten up before me, he walked over to where Oliver had walked in and extending his hand said “Oliver, good to know you have been released and are well.” I held my breath for Oliver’s response.
“I hear I have a bit to thank you for to… thanks for looking after Rachel when I didn’t, when I left her. I will never forgive myself…. But I will never forget that night, ever! Thank you, for looking after her.”
As they shook hands, all seemed to be going well! If only that guilty feeling that I couldn’t shake hadn’t returned to terrorise me… how was I going to choose between them?
That’s when we walked in to the stage area, I had to go out back with the other performers but I made sure everyone was OK first, the competition was tough I had heard it while I was with the others, but the guy who was playing now was absolutely amazing!
I didn’t get a good look at him, but he looked like he had been doing this for a long time, you could feel the emotions that he felt as he played his piece, I couldn’t help but clap as he bowed and began to head towards the exit.
I got one final look at him, for some reason I couldn’t stop looking at him, then the announcement brought me back to reality “Miss Rachel Morgan please report to the stage!” I couldn’t help but notice the other guy stop for a minute, I think he even looked back, but I was to busy getting on the stage.
I stood there, all on my own in the middle of the stage. The spotlight shone brightly on me, I looked at my shadow, knowing that this was the moment that would really change my life…. I forgot everyone else, all of my friends who were watching, the 2 boys I cared so much about, even my mother and my aunt, but I did think of someone, my father, how he made me feel all these years, alone and unwanted, I am going to show him right now, show him who I am and what he walked away from.
I let it all out, all the emotions that had been building inside of me for all these years, the song didn’t need words, the outside world no longer existed to me, I just played how I felt for those 3-4 minutes, it was just me, my life. Hope I did you proud mum. And the lights came up, and my little bubble of happiness was gone as the hall burst into applause, and I burst into tears of happiness.
As I walked through the doors into the lobby I let out a large sigh of relief “I can’t believe I just did that.”
“I believe it!”
“Oh Taylor, thank you! That was the best moment of my life and it’s all because of you!”
“You were amazing! You really are the most talented girl I’ve ever met!” We just stood there hugging then I felt him stiffen, and I could imagine the smile he had on his perfect face. “It’s time for your 2nd surprise!”
“Rachel?”
I had to hold on to my heart, I almost fainted, I would have if Taylor hadn’t held me up…. His voice. Triggered something in me, I knew it was him, I remembered the last thing he had said to me, like I had done over and over again, “I love you Rachel. Always remember that, I can never be good enough for you…” LIES HE NEVER LOVED ME! I didn’t know what to say…. All I could say was “YOU! KEEP AWAY FROM ME!”
How could my father be here? He hadn’t seen me in 15 years! He didn’t love me! Why was he here? Then I realised it must have been him earlier, I didn’t want to see him, I didn’t want to be reminded of how I once loved him.
“My little Rachel! I know it’s you please talk to me!”
I turned to face him…. He had a lot to explain to me and though it hurt me…. I still wanted to know why…
“My baby, you’re here! You look even more beautiful then I imagined! You look so much like your mother! There hasn’t been a single day that I haven’t thought of you Rachel….. I missed you so much, and I missed you growing into the beautiful young lady I see before me…”
I wanted to get angry with him, but the tears wouldn’t let me all I could manage was “Why, why did you leave me, was it because I killed mum?”
“Rachel… I didn’t leave because of you…. I left for you…. I didn’t want you to see me, so, so broken. I wasn’t myself for a long time, my life was a mess and nothing was right, I didn’t think I could make it in life when I lost Crystal, but I always thought of you… my little girl… and it got me through… I love you and I..”
It wasn’t going in…. he was worried about me? He cared for me? LIES! IF HE LOVED ME HE WOULDN’T HAVE LEFT ME WOULD HE?
Then my rage took over. “DON’T LIE TO ME! YOU’RE NOT MY FATHER AND YOU NEVER WILL BE, I HATE YOU!”
“I don’t need you, I don’t love you and I don’t want you! Just go, you’re NOTHING to me!”
“Rachy, please let me in, I love you so much and I know I hurt you…”
“Don’t call me that, ever. Don’t call me, don’t EVER TALK TO ME!
Taylor tried to reach me, try to comfort me and calm me down, but I wasn’t thinking and I didn’t want him here…
“You knew!? You knew didn’t you?”
“Rachel, please! I know deep down you want your father, you need him, I can feel it! Listen to him, I know this is best for you, I’d never want to hurt you!”
“LEAVE ME ALONE, ALL OF YOU!”
Why does this always happen? I should have known that I wouldn’t get my ‘happy ever after’ THEY DON’T EXIST! Just like I wish I didn’t exist, why did my mother have to die? Why was I left here without her, I need my mum!
I may have won the competition that day, but I lost something, so much more important. The only thing that kept me alive and fighting for 15 years… my little girl, my daughter, my everything. My Rachel.
Well that is all for now, I hope I provided a big shocker with lots of drama like I promised! If you liked it or want to make a comment please let me know over at http://forum.thesims3.com/jforum/posts/list/193631.page until next time, happy simming!
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