My Guardian Angel – Part 13

 

 

 

Welcome everyone to My Guardian Angel! Thank you to all of you who have supported me all the way through! No matter what there will defiantly be another chapter after this, and then I plan to set one roughly 15 years in the future, but for now let’s get back to the story.

Fields of flowers. Why was I dreaming of that? I’d just had the worst night of my life, part of my heart had been ripped out from me, and everything I thought I knew had changed, as I began to wake up I knew he was in the room, I knew he wouldn’t leave me.

Robert Morgan, my father. The man who I once hated, now I loved. He had carried me home last night, whatever weird experience I had been through had wiped me out and I felt so empty, he wouldn’t leave me, he loved me, I just wish I had figured that out sooner instead of hating him.

I woke up, with the sense of shock that had overcome me, was all of that a dream? Everything was blurry, but like I had known he was sitting there, first with a worried expression, and then a smile filled with love.

“Dad?” My voice was so groggy… how long had I been asleep for? “Is it really you?

He smiled again, and put his hand on mine, “Yes darling. It’s me, I’m here. I’ll always be here.” I smiled back at him.

I looked at him, knowing I could trust him with everything that had been going on, I could tell him how confused and frightened I was…

“Sweetheart, I can tell your upset, something’s wrong, you know you can tell me anything, right?”

I smiled at him, knowing I could trust him.

“Yeah, Dad, I know that. You might want to sit down this could take a while.” I told him everything, my relationship and connection with Taylor, my feelings for Oliver, how I had felt most of my childhood, the happiness I felt living with my siblings and best friends, and how happy I was now he was in my life.

I didn’t know what he would say? What could he? It’s not every dad a teenage girl finds out she’s connected with a mysterious guy, who she may have known from childhood, and has a side to him he can’t control and if my friends hadn’t turned up who knows what could have happened?

“Come here.” He pulled me in to his warm body “It’s going to be alright, I promise.”

Robert’s POV

I can’t believe how grown up she is! She’s been through so much in such a short amount of time, some of it is fault, and as a parent I will never forgive myself! I may not have been back in her life long, but I can see how lucky she is, she has great friends and even 2 siblings who love her dearly, I don’t know what she will do about Taylor, but I know she will do the right thing, and she will have a lot of people to help her get through it!

I looked up and saw her brother and sister, ready to comfort her. It made me glad that she had them after I walked away from her, you can tell they are good kids and all stick up for each other, it was a relief to know she had someone there for her.

“I think your needed Rach, 2 very important people were worried about you.”

Rachel’s POV

I felt a wave of happiness as I saw Kris and Jasmine standing there, waiting for me. Like family’s do. I ran over and hugged my brother, being a total guy, he tried to pull away.

“You know, you have to stop collapsing and running of, you’re going to give us a heart attack!”

I laughed, for a brief moment in time forgetting everything else “I will, I promise.”

As I looked at my sister’s concerned face, I broke in to tears. That brief moment of happiness was shattered, Jasmine knew where I went last night, and knowing that brought me back to reality “I’m never going to see him again.” I didn’t need to tell her who, she knew that I loved Taylor, she had even before I did.

While this was going on I saw my dad and Kris talking about something in a hushed tone, Kris seemed reluctant but nodded at whatever dad had said.

Then he started to leave the room, just as Avian and Megan entered, both letting me know how much they cared.

Then he started to leave the room, just as Avian and Megan entered, both letting me know how much they cared.

How did I deserve the love of these guys? They were all so nice, even after I ran off and didn’t say anything, I really was being watched over by my mother.

“You need to promise me Rach, you need to tell us when you run off, we worry about you OK?” How sweet was Avian? Jasmine is very lucky to have him. I wanted to keep that promise, but there was somewhere I needed to go.

I walked in to the garage and was greeted by Jasmine’s new car, she’d been saving up for ages to buy it, no one else was allowed to touch it, or it would result in their death. But I needed to get out there and it was to late for a cab. Maybe If I?

“Just take it.” Jasmine’s voice sent shock all through my body, but when I looked into her smiling face all that shock disappeared. “I know you’re worried about them, Oliver and Taylor. And I would hate to cause Avian pain like that… I really care for him, more then any of those other guys…. So go, make it right sis!”

It was dark, and it was WAY past curfew, but I needed to know they were OK… both of them. Taylor can try to push me away all he wants, but were linked. He knows how I feel and I know what he is feeling, guilt and fear. And I know I’m the only one that can help, can reach who he really is. But first I needed to see Oliver.

His sister let me in with a big grin on her face, she could always tell when Oliver was happy, and I was hoping he was now. I just stood there and watched him, he wasn’t like over guys. He was smart and so grown up, I loved him, it felt good to admit, but who did I love more?

As I sat next to him, he met my eyes with his dazzling smile, I loved his smile. He looked worried as he asked if I was OK…

“I’m fine.” I decided not to lie to him, to come straight out with it. “But, I’m confused.”

“About Taylor?” He asked. Was I linked to him as well?

“Yeah, how did you know?”

“Cause I know you. I know you’re worried about him and that you’re confused about us. If you ever need me, know that I’m here, and I’m not going to pressure or rush you into anything.”

I couldn’t help but scoot a bit closer to him, and he put his arm around me gently, showing me that he will always be here for me.

“I’m sorry I’m putting you through this, but I don’t blame Taylor. Something is wrong with him and he needs me, and I love him, just like I love you, and I hate causing you all of this pain Oliver.”

“You’re not causing me pain, as long as you are safe and happy I will never be in pain.”

Was he just too good to be true? I felt so torn as I nestled softly into his warm body, I loved him, I knew that, he would always be there for me and he was so nice, but I knew what I was doing was wrong, I had feelings for Taylor, I shouldn’t be here with him.

“Oliver, I can’t do this, please let me go.”

“I mean it Rach, I want to help you help Taylor, I know how important he is to you, and I know it’s hurting you, being in your arms is the best feeling in the world, but if you don’t want to do that, it’s fine, but I don’t want you to be with me, because Taylor is gone, please let me show you how I feel.”

I felt so safe and happy with him, he was so gentle and soft, so familiar to me. I loved him, and as much as I wanted to believe him, I knew I would hurt him, I just couldn’t choose between them, but what I knew was Taylor needed me, I shouldn’t be here kissing Oliver, no matter how much I wanted to.

I got up quickly and he followed. “Let me help you Rach.”

“I can’t do that to you Oliver, you deserve better than me! I’m sorry, but I need to find him, something in him is changing, and I can’t let that happen!”

I expected him to get angry with me or upset but he just stepped closer and smiled, then he pulled me gently into a hug.

“You have a connection with him right? Well call to him, if you love each other as much as I know you do, he will be calling for you.”

“Oliver that is such a good idea!” I took a moment to see if I saw any pain in his eyes as he saw how happy it made me. I thought I saw something for a moment, but he just smiled and gently kissed my forehead. “You need to go, it’s late.”

I was very tired as I climbed in to bed, it was about 2 in the morning, but I couldn’t help but think of them, both of them. Taylor, if you’re out there, let me know! I need you and I want to help! Please let me know!

At first my dream was peaceful, then I played over the events of the previous night, I tried to call him, to approach him and let him know I was here for him, but he just ran away again, with a face full of pain and regret.

 

Every time I dreamt of him, he left, but he would always come back in another dream. I don’t know why, but it felt like he was close, and knowing this I felt safe.

At first he looked just like himself again! Smiling and laughing, with his crystal blue eyes, I would give anything to see him again, to be able to hold him and let him know I’m here for him. Then he held on to his head, screaming in agony, then the dream brought me back to reality.

When he took his hands away he wasn’t the same guy anymore, he was angry, cruel and had those scary red eyes, the eyes that if you looked into them, something would happen to you, something bad. Then I woke up.

At first that last dream scared me, it felt so real, like I was losing him. Then I remembered Oliver’s words ‘You can call to him, you have a connection‘And he was right, we did. So I focused really hard, focused on finding him, I remembered all he had done for me, when we almost kissed at his home, that evening by the beach before the competition, and then I heard his weak voice in my head “Rachel… help me.” Tears were blurring my vision “I will. I promise.” I knew where he was.

I didn’t even change clothes, I felt that the Taylor I knew was slipping away... and fast. There was a ‘underground’ pool party tonight and everyone at school was invited, somehow I knew he was there, but I didn’t expect him to be doing what I walked in on.

It was 6am and most of the guests had left, but Taylor was still there. With another girl, I thought I recognised her from somewhere but I was more concerned with what was going on. I thought Taylor loved me? But even without seeing his face, I knew it wasn’t really him, his hold on her was all wrong, I had been in it only a few nights ago.

As if he knew I was here, he broke away from her, and I saw his eyes, his wrong red eyes. I tried to remember not to look into them, and instead tried to reach him through my thoughts ‘Taylor it’s me! I’m here to help you, put her down Taylor!’

“We will finish this later Shannon.” His voice was so different, confident and yet harsh.

Shannon Drake? I knew I recognised her, it’s typical, Kris turns her down so she puts her hands all over Taylor, my Taylor! It was hard for me to remember that this wasn’t really Taylor, and this ‘love’ before me wasn’t real either.

“You came back.” He flashed me that flirty grin again, I avoided eye contact. “I knew you couldn’t keep away from me.”

“I’m here to save you Taylor.”

“I don’t need saving!” He suddenly shouted, losing his cool for just a moment, then he turned his attention to the other girl that was with us.

I tried not to be bothered by what was happening, but I was! Was I really losing him? I knew this wasn’t him! It just wasn’t, was it? What if the guy that I loved was fake and THIS is the real Taylor? Then I heard his voice in my head again… ‘Run, it’s too late for me, I don’t want you to get hurt, I love you.’ That made me realise who the real Taylor was and it defiantly wasn’t him, by then I had also realised who Taylor was kissing.

That confirmed everything for me, NO WAY, would my Taylor, EVER, do anything with Diana Johnson, the girl who tricked me and almost embarrassed me by putting something in my drink and almost ‘spending the night’ with her ‘boyfriend; Darren.

“Say you love me again Diana.”

“I love you Taylor!”

What did this dark side of him want? Love? Or to cause pain? Or was it to make me jealous, so we could be together?

Then he turned to face me again, “Your jealous, I can feel it, you want me, and you know it.”

I was struggling not to meet his gaze, but I managed to say, “No, no I’m not. I want Taylor back!”

I decided if I was ever going to bring him back, then I needed to face what he was becoming head on, so I looked into his eyes He is so stunning! And wrong!

“Look at me Taylor! It’s me! I know you wouldn’t hurt me, or anyone! I don’t know what’s happening to you, but I know I need you and you don’t want to act like this, please come back to me!”

I made the mistake of looking in his eyes, he pulled me close. “It’s still me Rach.” His voice sounded so normal, I wanted to believe him! “I did this so you would realise how much you need me, we can be together forever… all you need to do is say yes.”

“I…..I…” NO! This was NOT Taylor! “No! You need to fight this Taylor! I love YOU not this guy in front of me, I know you love me and I love you to!”

“Get over yourself! He doesn’t love you, no one ones you!”

Great even when I’m trying to save her butt and she’s under the control of something, she is still a horrid human being.

Of course then crony number 2 started “Yeah no one likes you, or your stupid family, your no one anymore, how could a God like Taylor be interested in you?”

I wasn’t bothered by her words, I was more concerned with how Taylor had suddenly changed once again.

“DON’T YOU EVER TALK ABOUT HER LIKE THAT!”

I was just as shocked as Shannon was, was Taylor back to normal? Or was he getting out of control again?

Diana was laughing when he shouted at Shannon, obviously believing Taylor loved her, and then he turned his rage on her.

“And as for you, now I got what I wanted from you, you can go to!” She looked hurt, but did exactly what he said just as Shannon had, what was changing in him?

He pulled me into a hug, I didn’t know how to respond, was he back to normal or not? Then I felt his grip on me tighten and I got my answer.

“Now we are alone again, we can continue where we left of at the beach, tell me you love me.”

I pushed against him with everything I had and looked into his eyes, I was no longer afraid of him, or under the influence he had on people, I was going to help him just like I promised.

“I do love you Taylor. I love you, not what you are now! And I want you back! You have to fight whatever is going on in your head! I know you can, I can feel you in there!”

Then he did something I totally didn’t expect.

“SHUT UP, YOU STUPID GIRL, WHY DON’T YOU LOVE ME!” As his hand hit my skin, it hurt so much. My other hand quickly touched it, I looked at him and I hated the expression on his face, I’ve never seen someone look so guilty and in pain in my life.

I could hear his quiet tears, and heard his thoughts in my head again ‘How could I turn into this monster? How could I hurt her’ I knew he was going to try to run, so I grabbed his attention first. “Taylor, don’t go!”

Then he totally broke down, all I could do was hold him in my arms as he cried “I’m sorry! I’m so, so sorry!” I held him closer and let him know how I felt. “I know, I know, you have nothing to apologise for, it wasn’t you.”

He looked up and met my eyes, “What’s happening to me?” I hated the pain in his eyes, I knew he didn’t mean anything that had happened lately, ever since I yelled at him for bringing my father in my life, was it my fault? “No!” His voice was so strong, “Don’t ever blame yourself for this, it’s not your fault.”

“It’s not yours either, I still love you Taylor, and I always will.”

“You shouldn’t, I’m to dangerous now.”

“You’re not dangerous, your you, and I love you!”

I tried to lean in to him, to kiss him for real this time, but he pulled away.

“I mean it Rachel! You don’t deserve me, you deserve much more, I wish I could turn back time so you never met me.”

“I need to tell you, to tell you everything, about me, about my past, about us. But not here. Do you trust me?”

My response was immediate. “Yes.”

He smiled just for a moment, “Then follow me.”

He brought me to the little island that was just outside my old home, I looked at it, filled with memories, mostly bad. Then he stopped.

He pulled me close, closer than he had in a long time, he gently stroked my arms and looked for a moment at complete peace. “You sure you want to know about my past? Our past?”

Yet again my response was immediate “Yes, I do.”

“It started when I was very young….”

I was raised in a very well known family, the whole town new us, I was part of a 100 Baby Challenge, so I had a big family. Because of this we didn’t get much one on one time with our mother, but my older sister Demi loved me like only a mother could, and I loved her like a mother in return.

Everything she did make me feel safe, when she put me to bed she would ruffle my hair and tell me how much I meant to her, but soon she started to change, she seemed scared, worried about something.

One night, I felt something was wrong, my sister looked different, sad, tears were in her eyes, and I didn’t want to let go. She hooked her fingers through mine and said “Remember Taylor, I will always love you. I’m sorry for what I'm about to do, always remember me…” And I have remembered, I have remembered those words every day.

That was the night she walked out of my life, and I haven’t been the same ever since.

“So you’re leaving? Good. You could NEVER be heiress anyway, your to quiet and withdrawn, you get to attached to the kids, Taylor, my own son won’t even let me hold him!”

My sister would have been the best heiress in that town, she was kind and loving, in a way I’m glad she escaped that night, she moved away and made a name for herself, though it was hard, she became an heiress and is successful now, at least I hope.

She should have told my mother all of this a lot sooner… “YOU’RE NOT EVEN FIT TO CALL YOURSELF A MOTHER! You never pay attention to anyone! Leaving him is so painful for me, because I know he will be neglected, but I can’t stay, I’m gone!”

And the taxi drew off, that was the last time in almost 16 years that I saw her.

“She doesn’t know what she’s talking about does she? You love me right Taylor?”

I did love her. I was a small child, I would always love my mother, but it wasn’t the same, I wasn’t the same.

Soon it was my birthday, mum told me to be happy that I was growing up, but I couldn’t be happy, a big part of me was missing.

“Make a wish now Taylor.”

There was only one wish I wanted granted. I wished that the most important person in my life, my sister Demi would come back for me, maybe she would come back and take me away from here, that’s what I wished for.

I was 8 when it happened, I grew up, OK. I tried to put on a happy face for my mum for a long time, and then I started not to even bother doing that.

I was 8 when it happened, I grew up, OK. I tried to put on a happy face for my mum for a long time, and then I started not to even bother doing that.

A lot of my time was spent looking for her, it was like she never existed, how could someone completely disappear? Everyone said I was very intelligent for my age, and I was. I did everything I could to try to find her, and sometimes I almost did.

But it was never her, or the information was deleted or blocked, it was just one false hope after another, anyone else would have given up, but it just felt like a part of me was with her, and I needed her.

Me and my mother grew further and further apart, she would always blame Demi for this, and then it made it worse.

“I’m going to go out and find her, and I’m not coming back until I do!”

She never took me seriously, always tried to push me down, to make me forget her, but I wouldn’t.

“Fine, go out then, try to find her, but you won’t, she’s a coward, she wouldn’t show her face around here again!”

So I did, I searched everywhere I could think of to look, but she wasn’t here, I knew deep down she left town, but maybe she came back sometimes? Maybe she knew that I needed her.

While I was gone the accident happened.

There was a huge fire in my kitchen, and there was no way my mother could have escaped.

That was the day Bryony Matthews died in her home. But not just her, all of my family, I didn’t talk to them much, they thought I was being mean to my mother, but I didn’t want anybody dead! I was left all alone…

I may have had issues with my mother, but I forgave her, she was still family. I was upset and for a while truly felt alone.

I had nowhere else to go, so I moved in with my dad, Dan. He wasn’t what you would call the fatherly type, I didn’t want to live with him, I wanted Demi. But if he was willing to make an effort to change for me, then so was I.

He took me to the funeral, I missed my mother so much, and I missed my siblings, even Selena, she was staying over that weekend, if she hadn’t she would still be there? My dad, didn’t really show any emotions, but he had once loved my mother, and I knew he still did.

It has hard living in my father’s shadow, everyone expected me to be like him, hard, tough, confident, but I was broken. I tried to be the son that my dad wanted, but I couldn’t do it. For a long time I suffered with coma’s, I kept slipping unconscious and wouldn’t wake up for days, every time I woke up, I knew something happened, but I would always forget what.

Then one day my life changed, I went to the park to be alone, but someone special was there. That was the day I met her, that was the day I met you….

Thanks everyone! Next chapter should be the last official chapter, but as mentioned there will be one from 15 years on. I hope you all enjoyed it and stay tuned for the finale! Please leave me comments over at http://forum.thesims3.com/jforum/posts/list/193631.page! If you want me to create something based on this story once its finished let me know here!